தொட்டில் கவிதையில் என் தகப்பன்சாமி

தவப்புதல்வன் பிறந்துவிட்டான் என்றானே,

வானை எட்ட என் முன்னே நின்றானே,

முழு மதியின் புன்னகையை தந்தானே,

அவன் சரித்திரம் என் பெயராய் அரிசி தட்டில்,

எழுதிய நொடியில் ஆயிரம் விளக்குகள் அவன் முகத்தில்,

சூரியனும் தோற்றது அவன் பிரகாசத்தில்,

என் அசைவு அவன் இருதய துடிபாய் கடக்க,

கிள்ளினான் என் கன்னம் சிவக்க,

ஒரு துளி அவன் கண்ணீர் என் நெற்றியில்,

அவன் மகனாய் நான் பிறக்க வேண்டுவேன் பல ஜென்மத்தில்,

என் தொட்டில் அவன் முகத்தை மறைக்க கண்ணயர்ந்தேன், கனவிலே என் தகப்பன்சாமியை காண!!

கவிதை தொடர்ச்சி

இன்றைய பொழுது சேமிக்க மட்டும், நாளையோ முற்றும் களிகூர,
உண்மையில் அந்த நாளை வரும்பொழுது எமன் வோலை வரும்,
பொருள் யாவும் கற்பூரமாய் கரைந்து போகும் காற்றோடு காற்றாக,
அதுவா வாழ்க்கை??? இல்லை!!

வாழ்க்கை ஒன்றே, வாழ்வின் மணித்துளிகள் சிதறி நறுமனமாகட்டும்,
வலி நெடுக அன்னருமணம் கமழட்டும், சிரிப்பலையினால் கன்னம் வலிக்கட்டும்,
கண்கள் ஆனந்தத்தினால் பொங்கட்டும், காணும் கண்கள் வியப்பினால் நிறையட்டும்,

சூராவழியும் சுருண்டு ஓடும் உன் வாழ்வை கண்டு,
உள்ளம் பொருளினால் அல்ல அமைதி பூக்களால் நிறைந்திருக்கும்,
சந்தோஷ சரித்திரம் படைக்க சிந்தித்து எழுவாய் இந்நாளே!!

Some-day Some-life, I shall meet you!!

You made the right decision, to make me cry,

My cry, my search is endless inside of me,
I realized in my tears, what i got to do,
I was a worn out battery, you made me feel by your rejection,
That I am a renewable power source.
Now here I am on my way melting myself,
Miserable is the intuition that, I should not think about you anymore,

My mind is scorching myself and crucifying me,
And trying not to realize the truth.....the truth,
That you are not a part of my life anymore.
But what I had and have will never whither away.
Even if am stone pelted.

Let my tears, every liquid gushing out of me shall evaporate,
And breeze around your living place with fragrance of your mother.
For as long as I live, I'll be true to what I had and have.

May be it's not you who left, it was me letting you go.
So scared and scared and scared to express who you are inside me,
So that's the painful end, part and parcel of a poor guys life,
But may be not, I ask myself how I became so bright,
Only thing that strikes, So pure, So pleasant,
Inside the unopened gift box, beating every second saying.
That if I was true, you are with me, may be not physically!!!

Hoping some day when my dust flows by the air,
Makes you realize what I had for you, which nobody else had.

Still feel someday, in some-life I shall meet you and say what I have too.
That someday is the day my soul rests in peace!!

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A Human Humming Bird...........

An usual week day, missed the office bus, with much of a regret, got into an Auto Rickshaw thinking I could catch it.

Auto driver was an old chap, hopefully between 60-70.

I wasn't knowing that a glorious ride was getting started.

Couple of big speed breaker hit with a high song......


Maruthi which was going in front went from steep left to right, no indicator or signal......
Crossed with a whistle........

Erratic two wheeler crossed with "oh oh oh ooooh mmm" and a big smile........

For every instance of irritation faced there was a giggle, there was song, there was deep felt thankfulness, I was curious to see him choose the reasons for being happy no matter what.

Was he drunk?? realised that sure he didn't.........

That moment the blissful feeling filled me too, Auto driver - human - the reason for me being happy.

As I near my destination humming bird continues with the auto sound as the background music......

Whether I caught my bus or not that wasn't a usual day!!

It was good great blessed b_e_a_uuuutiful day!!!

I didn't see him again anytime, but everyday I remember this event as I go to office and I choose to see the reasons to be happy no matter what!!

Blessed are we, we too can hum!!

As a human humming bird!!

My wand says “Cario - Respecto”!!

 Neither a smile nor a rose could I shower you with!!

All I could was to cry aloud, nearly a Sonic Boom!! Wow!!

To, much of a wonder or a miracle, although pain was your guest then!!

There goes the smile of a life time in your lips!

World was big... big...  bigger!! Neither did I understand it! Nor did it care about my puny existence! But Tooth Fairy had her visit once in a while!!

As though a moth out of a cocoon, so was I fluttering and playing with my big eyes!!  Crawling on the merry land!! Having the finest thumb juice!!

Nonetheless, smacking a gritty taste of the mud!!

Thus started knowing life’s surprises for free!!

Touch of a daffodil, Kiss of the moonlight, Hug of an ice cube,

Thy presence around me!! My careless days moved…

Neither did I know how to wear formals nor casuals!! Bluh bluh!!

But so sweet, why was I with butterfly colors??

Learnt you swished "Butterfly-Totam" on me bingo!!

Oh yeah!! Am a wonderland creature tuf… tuf… tuf… every merry moment!!

Curious to me yet again!! There goes a miniature of you around me!!

Oh my!! Oh my!! It plays the harp with my laugh nerve!!

With a frock, with a dance, does it sing lullabies of you!!

Phony tail wiggling, shares its cotton candy with me!!

My goodness!! What all these kisses on my cheeks and my forehead??

Ahah!! Ahah!! Am her Barbie!!

A bubble out of my mouth, a giggle out of my heart!!

Breathtaking!! Thunderous!!A standing ovation from thy and thy miniature!!

To all my super heroic deeds of the wonderland!!

Blimey!! I loved it!! I loved it and continued to!!

A happiness potion, a placebo to feel heaven

Thus feels! Thus feels! Thy presence around me!! Always!!

Wooooh!!! How fast the world shrunk!!!! May be I did zoomed out!! Oopsie!!!

Crying!! Hardly I remember how to!!! Yep yep yippy!! 

Formals or casuals you name it I wear it all!!

How miraculous of my little self!!Swear I know now...........

How to swish......."Butterfly-Totam" on thyself and thy miniature!!

Oh yeah!! Ay e…aye... It’s my turn!!

My Angel!! My Goldfish!!

To give the smile of a lifetime!! Every single moment!! Will I try!!

But remember.....For a difference....

My little self too will laugh my heart out along!! Ha-ha!!

After all these lovely, swishy wooshy, miraculous time!!

With thyself and thy miniature!!

It struck me that flashy moment, a little known truth of its own kind!!

Leaked out of heaven!! God made man!! But yet! But yet!

He made him among angels & gold fishes!!

My little self swears for today, tomorrow and day beyond!!

For a happily ever after life with'em!!

With a never ending spell of mine "Cario-Respecto"!!

Spell Dictionary:

Butterfly Totam: Object acquires butterfly colors

Cario – Respecto: Showers Care and Respect

Clue to better understand the poem:

Mother  & Sister



Ponvandu(Jewel Beetle) and My Dad's Torch

Moving the clock leafs back to my good old childhood days. Here I am up to write about the insect pets I had back in time. 

The place where I grew up was a small township called Chinnalapatti near Dindigul (Tamilnadu, India), although most of my friends & me call it Chinnala-City out of the exaggeration for the warmth and the feel good moments it gave us.

Chinnala-City was covered by bunch of villages here and there. Among them I remember SamiyarPatti the most. Since my house happened to be pretty nearer to that, just a rail line in-between. I had really good friends from there and have still, who helped everyday to form a "train" and have snacks in every other home we enter, with our overwhelming fascination for a train journey.

So now without deviating much from the mysterious pets I wanted to share about. One beautiful morning, I saw that servant maid's brother was having a big green insect inside an egg shell. I was frightened and didn't want to touch. After little strength out of the advice from Jothi(Servant maid) I touched it, her brother went on lifted it up and landed it right on my palm which got me goose bumps.

Oops it was big, terrific but yet slow moving and shiny. Now my mind got poised with that shiny insect and was in cloud nine when her brother showed the egg it laid. I badly wanted it and politely asked her brother to give it to me. But only after bargaining for ten rupees I got it for myself and myself only.

A new pet, that too, in an egg shell?? No should not be... thought myself, and went on fighting with my mother to get a bigger container from the Kitchen. So goes the Ponvandu into the big beautiful container with Tamarind leaves for it to eat and support the egg. I made some pores too so that it has plenty of Oxygen for it to be alive.

Those days I was really nocturnal, once my parents sleep I used to take my father's torch a 3 cell everyday silver torch, so without disturbing them I used to play in the light it offered. Sometimes my experiments on the torch will eventually lead to the bulb getting broken and next day he will replace it after giving hefty amount of advice to a very obedient very silent me. But my rampage on the torch continued and he used to complain to my mom, as she always covered me up for what I do and did with the torch.

So that day when my new pet was there and all my curiosity was on the egg.....The Egg!!

Here again the night falls and my parents slept, and now scientist is on with the torch and the container with the beetle. My imaginations flying around, thinking let me force the light straight to the egg, so that the egg hatches..........intuition after hearing that chicken eggs hatch with tungsten bulb's heat.

Egg hatched by the torch glow or I hatched the eggs, what might have happened ???

Days passed as I waited it to hatch with my dad's torch on the boil. I really didn't go out of the house in the weekend even to play nor did I was fully mindful in the school. Everyday once I reach home I ran up to the container and saw whether the egg is hatched and the insect is alive. In school I used to discuss ideas to hatch the egg with my scientist friends and talk big about my deed with the torch in the night.

One fine day, my objective was completely broken, I saw that the little tiny egg was no more in that container, as my mom was cleaning it and replenishing it with livestock(tamarind leaves) every day, I went on and started Devil's advocate with my mom.

My mom's reply was a sweet surprise, "Hey the little one flew away after hatching, so it might come back later to find its mother, so keep an eye". Scientist believed and was happy but was worried that I couldn't witness the miraculous event which I waited waited waited and waited. I hoped one day it will return with flying colors to see its mother. Another thought on the corner like Sherlock Holmes, "why could I not see the hatched egg cell" asked my mom. Again my mom said she cleaned it the day before. 

Secret: (Actually she had missed the egg when she cleaned it, which she told me after a while, when I had my realization).

Although a day came when I saw that the insect in the container was no more able to walk and it was lying there immobile. I thought it was missing its egg that's the reason why it is very sad and feels like dying. To resolve this situation, scientist spoke with my servant's brother again and asked where he found it. As pointed by him we both went to that place at noon, a big tamarind tree. In the same place where he found it I placed it, and convinced myself saying "it would become alright, it will not die". 

Walked back to home, thinking I did what was good for it!! But alas the next day when I went alone, I could see only the feathers out there!! 

From then on I never did pet a Ponvandu, although my friends used to have it and I used to wonder about it all the time as I did the first time!!

The same fascination for them has made me write this treasure moment and share along with you!!

One thing for life which I realize with this event is, recognize and get fascinated for small little meagre blessings in life, you will be a blessing for many, indeed the purpose of our life.

We, Ourselves and the Kaleidoscope

As life goes by, everyone of us define ourselves with a Kaleidoscope of time found principles. As the time rotates we see us differently. Based on the chosen subset of principle elements, but super-set of these elements which fill the kaleidoscope is what you are really made of, times might change, situations might change, angles might change. But based on the super-set..., the combination makes you glow and flow for an aurora of its own kind!!

I still remember the last time, I saw through the Kaleidoscope wondering what combination it will give for the next rotation!! Have I found the combination?? yep once in a while i find it, but am left clueless still, b'coz when I finish deriving it changes, but i cheer for what it brings out.

I love Kaleidoscope and i love what i made out of it!! Hope i would have my truth table with combinations of value and love!!